Guys, I am very happy I have you guys to say all this stuff to. The first month of being here was really difficult. Really difficult. But today is a better day. Why? Because a group of men heard me and said I wasn't alone. That things would get better- and they are. Slowly, but they are better. And I am making changes in my thinking... now that's an undertaking...

And I'll take your advice, Lee. Its time to pull it together. Nor at this time will I seek out a date which has the potential to separate my life into phases AGAIN! At least not yet. I don't think I no longer desire to know, and I want no anniversary. Nope. Not today.
For now we see through a glass, darkly.