Do not be afaid of the jouney, there is a better place. It took almost three years for me to tell my"T" everything. It is hard but worth the trip. Find a good "T" who has worked with males. Also know that you are not alone.
it is and has been quite a trip thru life, as last I feel that I am in a better place, it takes work and in my case a wife the was and is forgiveing and helpful. At last a relationship has gone right, messed up three.