I think really in my heart I want to pretend it never happened, like go back to the way I was a couple of years ago where everything seemed fine and it didn't really bother me.

Apparently that's bad and unhealthy. But it worked pretty good for me.

I thought counselling was going to be where someone would tell me what to do so i could fix everything. But its nothing like that. It sucks! They just want me to talk about it while they listen. I suppose sometimes when you are totally inolved with some issue then it can be helpful to get another persons perspective on it, but my counsellor doesn't even really do that. She just seems to basically repeat everything I say back to me and it IRRITATES me. A lot.