Thanks for your kind replies. I really have been neglecting myself and I know I need to fix that.

Now that he is in therapy, he is stirring up a lot of crap from his past and even though he is now headed in the right direction, I feel sometimes like things are still getting worse. He is picking fights with me, etc. He is viewing pornography this normal???? Will it get worse still before he heals?

Today was a bad day.