I wish I had words for you. You had the right words at the right time when I was in the very depths of despair and depression. My heart aches for you. CSA affects the whole family. I don't know where the balance is as a partner heals. I know the longing for wholeness for my loved one and the agonizing pain of loving him too. I'd be willing to bet your wife often feels the same. I know you are a praying man, so don't stop praying. I will pray for you as well. I hope that restoration of your family is your story, but even if that isn't what God plans, your story will be glorious because your journey to healing has reformed you. Your pain and struggle has assisted many.i'm grateful for "knowing" you.
Wife of a survivor