“high anxiety” awesome!

Jude the vertigo was more about the mental/physical feelings not associated with my fear of heights, it’s just that the feeling of falling backwards was really strong when it was happening but strangely enjoyable and liberating, nothing like my fear of heights, I could never place where it came from maybe it was a prelude to dis-associating during my abuse, who knows?

"it has never yet been discovered how to make man unknow his knowledge, or unthink his thoughts"

T. Paine