i did it!!!
last night was the talent show. we did pretty well. we were performing a couple of a capella pieces. they had not been chosen with beginners in mind - but were quite complex with polyphony - a new word for me. the rhythm was very syncopated on one and there were different words for each of the parts and weird discordant bits here and there. since i sing bass it was simpler than the other parts but still challenging to me. anyway i made it through all the rehearsals and the actual show and i am glad i saw it through to the end. i can't say it was a big thrill or that i learned anything amazing. but i did get a sense of satisfaction that i did overcome my fear and do something so far outside my comfort zone that it wasn't even on the same page of the map.
"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"