i applaud and commend you, sir!
please seriously consider finding a way to make your art visible and accessible to the public.
if it has this effect upon someone who has presumably heard and see a lot of suffering - it must be powerful and eloquent.
i believe it will help outsiders to understand our experiences better.
and i hope it would also help you in taking back control in your own life and recovery.
"the scariest thing about abuse of any shape or form, is, in my opinion, not the abuse itself, but that if it continues it can begin to feel commonplace and eventually acceptable."
- Alan Cumming, "Not My Father's Son"