i applaud and commend you, sir!
please seriously consider finding a way to make your art visible and accessible to the public.
if it has this effect upon someone who has presumably heard and see a lot of suffering - it must be powerful and eloquent.
i believe it will help outsiders to understand our experiences better.
and i hope it would also help you in taking back control in your own life and recovery.
"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"