I have often felt fear of the future. As you say - fear that it will never get better, fear that I will live the rest of my life in pain and loneliness, a big, dark, generic fear of the unknown, simply because I don't know what to expect... It comes to me every time I fall into a new hole that I don't know how to get out of.
Right now, I don't know if I'll ever be able to look at myself in the mirror without revulsion, and that scares me. I'm afraid that I may have to live my life feeling like I do now...
I guess what I'm trying to say
Is whose life is it anyway because livin'
Living is the best revenge
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-- Def LeppardMy Story
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