I'm making a huge effort to be better and to heal some... I have the chance to talk with a psychiatrist... I mean, he's been working with me for a while but I haven't told him... I'm sleeping in a facility anyways... I feel like I should tell him but I just can't... and I'm afraid that if I do, I will go nuts... I know you will say do it but I just can't... i even tried writting a letter and I couldn't... i really wish i could.. although I don't think he or anyone can really help... sometimes i just wish i could tell some stuff to someone..