Welcome, Danny -
it sounds like you have a lot to deal with right now.
it is a rough road - and trying to find your way is often overwhelming.
but this MS site and these people can help.
hope you find the same encouragement and support that i have here.
How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....