I've lived my whole life thinking there was something wrong with me & being treated, by many, like there was something wrong with me. I have an awful time relating to others & forming relationships. So, you are not alone... In my case I think the CSA led to many many mental issues that manifest in both the mental & physical. My thoughts are with you.
The Bluebird of Happiness long absent from his life, Ned is visited by the Chicken of Depression. - Gary Larson