Thanks guys, your stories really did bring me hope and was rejuvinated to go back in and have a good go at making things work!

I am so very sad to say though that I lost and his abuse won!

One last episode of going AWOL, ignoring all contact with me, shutting me out of his home - I guess it was the straw that broke the camel's back. I had a breakdown and realised that it was so unhealthy for me.