This place has lots of resources - articles, books, therapist, weekends of recovery (WOR), These forums and chat rooms.
Finding a qualified therapist is something this site can help with - keep exploring the pages and resources and you will learn a lot about navigating the road of recovery and healing.
Your honesty about your struggles is a good thing- it means you are developing the ability to lead yourself towards a healthier future-and it is one more ally you have in this work.
Keep showing up!
We have to take responsibility for what we're not responsible for.
�It doesn't matter where you've come from,
It matters where you go" Frank Turner