Father figures... oh boy.

I've never had a healthy father figure in my life. My father and foster father were my abusers. Other father figures came and went at times. Other "father figures" drifter through my life at times, but they never really cared, and usually left me feeling hurt, disappointed or abandoned. Or all three. My wife's father hated me and never hesitated to show it.

My girlfriend's father shows a tendency to be "fatherly" towards me, but I think I've lost the ability to be a son. One can't learn to be a son at 40. It's too late. He scares me. Not because he's ever said or done anything threatening - just because I don't know how to act around him...
I guess what I'm trying to say
Is whose life is it anyway because livin'
Living is the best revenge
You can play
-- Def Leppard

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