Welcome to malesurvivor, but sorry you have to be here...

I had major surgery in July 2010. It was hugely triggering for me too. The feeling of not being able to move, not being in control of my body... having strangers poke and prod and stick things into me... catheters - hell yes. And they stuck an IV in my groin... way to close to my privates for comfort.

After the surgery, I felt... violated. Like my body had been invaded. I felt like I didn't belong in my own skin - I wasn't safe any more. I didn't see the staples as a zipper, but I can relate to the feeling of anyone can get inside my body...

I guess all I'm trying to say is you are not alone. I was there too and it sucked...
I guess what I'm trying to say
Is whose life is it anyway because livin'
Living is the best revenge
You can play
-- Def Leppard

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