I've never posted anything like this before, but I could really use some help. Because of a lot of reasons, but especially because my EMDR T double-cancelled on me, I have no control of my emotions right now.

I just got out of a bathroom sobbing episode and my eyes are still wet and my jaw is clenched to keep it from quivering.

THe part of me that keeps my emotions bottled up trusted me and loosened up because of the EMDR... now there's no EMDR, just the emotions and I can't make it stop.

I don't know what I'm asking for here... but can someone please talk to me?

But he grew old, this knight so bold / And upon his heart a shadow / Fell as he found no spot on the ground / That looked like El Dorado.