welcome. so good that you are ready to post. keep at it. it really helps.
incest is a whole additional can of worms on top of abuse. it make stuff so difficult. glad that you are working with a therapist.
i don't have an answer for you to your question. but i want you to know you are not alone. for me it was a step-father who did most of the abuse - but mom was complicit. i too have very mixed feelings toward her.
keep working, and best wishes for lots of healing this year!
How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....