Hey tannerdog2 welcome to Male Survivor!
Please take it easy, there are a lot of different tools and resources offered to us here, take your time for slow exploring it. I hope you'll find if any of these suits you and your needs.
Dealing with some internal conflicts could be overwhelming and exhausting so there is no reason to push anything.
I'll add that many of us have some issues not exclusively connected to sexual abuse and that you already wrote.
I've found great support here and many friends, I've read a lot of good articles, found some god books and so on, so I think that after I become part of this community my life has improved.
Take care for yourself!

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