Welcome, odie!
you will find many kindred spirits here - guys who relate to different details of your story.
congrats on the progress you have made already.
may your time spent with us be another giant step in your healing.
you are not alone.
Lee
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How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....
Habakkuk 1:2-3