Magellan,

Hang in there, brother. You are most certainly *NOT* alone.

I'll be honest:

I want to die, too. Then, all the pain would be gone, all the struggle over.

But I refuse to do it to myself. Because then the bastards win.

And so I continue to struggle. Every day the pain. Coming here to MS has saved me countless times.

A puppy sounds like a great idea, if I can ensure that my life is stable enough, I might take that plunge.

Thanks, Soccer. Hang in there, Magellan.

Cant
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I'll be just fine and dandy
Lord, it's like a hard candy Christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But I won't let sorrow get me way down.