Thanks Lee for sharing; that helps me hope a little harder, and solidifies my faith that we can make it through this; I'm just in shock still; my world has crumbled and I'm trying to be okay with feeling vulnerable and unsettled. She's been awesome since last night, but I just can't get over the pain on her face, even as she strokes my hand. I've destroyed her, and I'm so sorry, but I can't undo it or change it, and that sucks. It hurts to see her in so much pain because we already had so much on us. We're the stabilizes factor in our families, and now in addition to the families mess, we have to deal with my past and bad choices not to tell her, deal with my issues, and get consistent help.
"Because if you don't define yourself for yourself, you'll be crushed into other people's image of you, and eaten alive." (Audre Lorde)