Thank you; your words made me tear up because I'm terrified right now Pero. I just want to crawl out of myself right now.My chest has tighten, and I'm practicing breathing right now. I told her that she was the best thing that ever happened to me and that I loved her, and that I would be there for her and our family. But I always told her that I couldn't take much more assaults because it made me want to get watch porn again, that is was just too much after two days of hearing it. Thank you again; it's just tense right now, and we don't speak unless it questions about my sexuality, or vent her rage on me. I just don't know what to do, but talking to you all is helping me calm down it bit.
"Because if you don't define yourself for yourself, you'll be crushed into other people's image of you, and eaten alive." (Audre Lorde)