I will never look at Subway cookies the same agian sick .

Yes that was 'just plain gross'.

Thanks for sharing the 1986 story in more detail. Man that guy was a creep!!!!!! mad

I totally get being uncontrollably sick
I totally get the 'no one must know'
I totally get the needing to maintain the appearance of being in control
I totally get being triggered by public toilets
I totally get the memories of forced facefucking invading your mind!! Your parents do sound great. I think Saturday is going to be just fine. Glad you didn't tell them then -it wasn't the time.

I would try to focus of what you mother said -it is Gold!!!:

"These things don't have any respect, dear. No one thinks you did it on purpose. You were just an innocent victim."

More than meets the eye!