Am I afraid or something else? I don't think what I feel is fear deep inside, or shame even.

Maybe it's some sort of envy, assuming that the person can cave sex without many problems, unlike me. Why do I put sex on a throne like this? Like everyone can enjoy and I can't, and I don't think this is because of abuse alone.
Consider the postage stamp: its usefulness consists in the ability to stick to one thing till it gets there. ~Josh Billings.
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