Hey Jcm, ((((jcm)))))
I'm sorry that you cope with your pain with self cutting.
Please try to calm yourself, it is alright, the storm is over.
I hope no one would say nothing about your scars.
Please be aware that you are not alone and that every problem has solution.
Here is the link to our brother gecko who has a lot of experience with self destruction behavior and he wrote good article about it: http://ramblingsofanabusesurvivor.blogspot.com/2012/11/controlling-urge-to-cut.html
It could be helpful for you.
Hang on
My story