what Sam said!!!
and - my T says: "you have to OWN it before you can DIS-OWN it!"
so - yeah - been through that - and it DOES get better - if you keep going - keep working at it - keep moving on...
sometimes it takes more dogged determination and the habit of endurance than hope.
"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"