Hey cosmos......you are not alone....I know that that may not help, but I am in the same boat, on the road, cannot quit. My solution was to try to really value the alone time to soul search and really address my issues. (on the flip side, working in an office all day, with the bullshit politics, meetings etc. would drive me nuts)

Hang in there and keep reaching out. (I am with you on big cities....a realy insane way for people to live)
A scared little boy who is trying to heal and feel again..