Thank you, both of you, for your kind words of advice. Mountains, how did you disengage? What did you do when you felt yourself about to relapse into these behaviours? I live alone and wish I always had a sidekick with me to stop it and remind me to do something else. Your description of it as an escapee, an an attempt to rewrite the past are identical to my internal process behind it. And you're right... it makes things worse, and it does not do anything constructive- only destructive.

Still, what are the names of these books? I could really use some literature or words of advice on exactly HOW to stop, and HOW to sort out my thoughts. There is so much traffic going on, and I cannot direct it.
,,Nun ging es immerzu, weit, weit bis an der Welt Ende."