While discussing rape in the army (I kept my abuse quiet during the discussion) I was told by someone who was in the US military (and whose father died in the US military) that even though these things happen, the abusers still deploy to protect me and my family while I sleep, so therefore it is acceptable mad

Even though he didn't out right say it, that is what he meant!!
I was so upset about it, that a human being actually could think something like that!! mad
"This is the story of how we begin to remember."

"...just below my skin I'm screaming..."