Suwanee sounds a lot like me except it was just a typical mid-life crisis until I started looking at my childhood; everything started coming back, the abuse, the family’s denial and even retribution by my father for blaming his god for what happened to me! 40+ years of silence; but no more!

Good Luck!!!
"it has never yet been discovered how to make man unknow his knowledge, or unthink his thoughts"

T. Paine