please try to calm down a little bit.
I'm sorry to hear that you don't have enough support. Must be difficult for you
Don't bother with those who rejected you.
Sometimes there are days when everything looks much worse than it is in reality, I hope this is the case.
Please share more with us if you'll feel better.
You are great guy, very honest and very brave to take steps where many of us couldn't go. You have a lot to offer to others.
Hang on man, here is my hug for you