Hi Antonimm, thanks for your reply.

I was abused at the age of 7/8 by two women and I think, their boyfriends. It was a group abuse sort of situation.

Also, my father is on the autistic spectrum and has always had problems relating to us and could be quite cruel towards us. He would mock me about girls constantly just to make me feel bad, the more I felt bad, the funnier he found it. There was nothing light hearted about it. It was vindictive. I think it reinforced how bad I felt about the abuse I was covering up. So I grew up believing that finding and having girlfriends or anything sexual was very shameful and to be avoided at all costs.

Edited by Unknown1 (11/07/12 08:28 PM)
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