Hi Searching,

Welcome to MS.

I am glad you have found this place of healing and support.

I am sorry that your parents ignored what happened to you. Between their emotional abandonment of you at 14 and their physical abandonment of you at 17, I can only imagine how very alone you must have felt.

In addition to your individual therapy, there may be a group of male survivors run by your county rape crisis center. Services are at no cost to county residents.

There are several books you might find useful.

Abused Boys: The Neglected Victims of Sexual Abuse by Mic Hunter.

Victims No Longer by Mike Lew

I am certain others will share titles they have found useful. You can find these titles, and others here at the bookstore.

Take your time and look around. You do not want to trigger yourself by reading too many posts at one time.

At your own pace, read the boards and wander into chat. The lounge (chat) is open 24 hours a day though it isn't always populated.

We also have moderated chats called Healing Circles. They meet on Sunday and Wednesday evenings at 9pm eastern time and one on Tuesday at 19:00 UTC (European and African time zone) which translates to 2 PM Eastern US time zone. The Healing Circle on Tuesdays is scheduled to resume in January.

Again, welcome to MS.

Acceptance on someone else's terms is worse than rejection.