when I was a boy myself, I was in 3rd grade in the locker room before gym, I showed one of them that the foreskin can go up and down and he was amazed, but I was surprised because I thought he already knew, I was being abused during this time, then he told and another boy asked to see so I showed and he was also surprised, I think the reason why I did it is to see if they were experiencing the same thing I was, I feel disgusted because this is not who I am (28 I am now), is this considered abuse what I did?