Brother you should be careful. With your mental blockade I am not sure that is smart to start with anyone any relationship. Other people might fell on you and you will hurt them at the end because of it – so be careful what you are doing.
And regarding blockade, do not expect that it will go just like that no matter what you do or wish.
Mine is there even if I am under alcohol or medicines, lol nothing works that is how solid is to be correct but still I was able to break it through at least on some degree and I feel great, almost completely free. If you want we can switch to private, when you are ready I think that I might have some advices for you… so please take your time, think a lot and hit me when you have more courage.