Every time I hear reference to the endless "God sized hole" inside and how to fill it, it always involves learning how to love yourself.
There are no shortcuts to recovery. And expecting someone else to come in and rescue me is irresponsible. I am responsible for myself, and responsible for my own recovery. No one else is.
That is the hard truth.
I spent too many years waiting for someone else to come and rescue me. I've seen you post in many many messages that you are expecting someone else to come in and rescue you.