Well good luck. i freely admit giving that desire up is not in the least easy. I just concluded after too many occasions falling in love and it going no where and too many years of never knowing or believing anyone could be interested in me that I have to stop hoping and rid myself of that desire.
I have no idea why, indeed the amount of times I've been told "you'd make a good husband/boyfriend" by various female friends, --- -but never mind! I've concluded there are better things that I can! do.
in fairness I am 29, have been though recovery for the past five years but still suffer from genophobia and trouble with physical affection, so this might just be me.
Bare in mind though that there are other things in life than relationships, and that sometimes the desire for something unattainable can! be destructive.