I asked my wife to go with me. I wanted her to be a part of my healing. I wanted her there also to ease her mind and pain. If that makes sense.

If your H won't go then you should consider what is best for you. I mean , and I hate to keep relating to other issues, if ur husband got in his truck and it wouldn't start every morning then I bet you that he goes as gets a new battery for it. He may not need a new truck tho if only the battery is dead. Your marriage is his truck. He is the battery. If this makes any sense. I am terrible at getting my point across at times. I hope he gets help and you stay strong. Best wishes to y'all. Praying.
Ephesians 6:13

Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

Ephesians 5:25

Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her