Jude, like so many others here, I am also one who feels uncomfortable in the company of men. I am Slightly surprised to learn that I am not alone in this. I have never been to a stag party and if I were to get married, at no stage in my life did I have a friend who could be my "best man". I can relate to so much of what has been said here on this topic. I have tried very hard to be seen as just another guy when in a group and lately it is getting better. But for most part of my life going out and being in a group of men was very hard. My csa took place from ages 8 to 12 and in a way I became locked into that age. I just could not mature like other guys and always looked years younger than my real age.
When there are dolphins in the waves,
the sharks wont get to us.
I believed my dad that day
and became Dolphinboy,
my own protector.