but non verbal intimacy? NONE.

This brought an interesting point to my mind. Do I also not feel kinship between either sex. Do I simply overcompensate in a non verbally intimate way as a form of a mask to hide my real inability to connect. The same way others have stated before of being uncofortable and in the wrong skin in a wholey male crowd but being able to talk enough of a game to slip through the radar. I find intimacy EXCEEDINGLY difficult to grasp and understand, and, with but a single exception in my life beyond my abuse, exchanged sexuality as a substitute almost immediately, for they became interchangable from the start.
I will never ALWAYS be right, I wasn't wrong, I am whats left.