Okay here's a question thats been on my mind for a while. When I'm in a group of men socially, I never feel like part of the group. I always feel like a little kid, awkward and unsure what to say. Even when most of the men are younger than me. Its like I'm stuck at 13 (my csa age).
At the same time I can socially relate well to women. I do great at public speaking. I can be funny, articulate, and poised. But put me in a small group of guys and I freeze up.
Am I alone in this or what?
Me too. And I'm also responding to the other guys who have expressed this. I know I first felt this when I went off to first grade. I know that these feelings made me vulnerable to more abuse.
The book I'm reading about the effects of abuse in children comments specifically on this social problem.