At my last appointment with my psychiatrist I brought up concerns I had about my medicines causing problems with my short term memory. He replaced one of them and reduced the dose of another. It's only been four days, so I haven't seen any improvement in short term memory, but a few memories of things that were going on back when I first started taking the one that's been reduced have started becoming clearer than they were. I'm just concerned about how rough the transition will be since the one that got replaced is a mood stabilizer. I've been averaging 4-6 hours sleep since Monday and I'm shaking most of the time. I'm just worried that it might not be worth it. I've come to appreciate how blurry my memories of the abuse are, and considering how bad it gets around the end of the year I'm just worried about whether or not I'll have adjusted to the lower dose and the new medicine by then.
I may not be perfect, but at least I'm not fake.