Thanks your post made me cry. It really clicked with me. Esposa thanks for the explanation and book. I've been thinking a lot latley about why it is so hard to face the truth about ourselves sometimes. It's really silly because refusing to see only holds us back. It's been a really emotional week for me but I have been gaining a lot of insight into myself. I think I still haven't fully forgiven myself for being such a nasty bully for so long and hurting my family. I'm learning that sometimes the hardest person to forgive is yourself. I think in the past I had put up with H's behavior because I felt like it was my karma for how I treated others for so long. I realize how unhealthy this kind of thinking is and I'm looking forward to changing it.
Thanks again
Everything comes from within