Just going to add. My CSA was a woman, I do have some fantasies about that experience. I'm now an out gay/bi man. I've been with my partner/husband for 5 years now. I fell in love and my life has never been better. I love my husband with every ounce of my soul, but yes, I can get sexually aroused by the experience I had.

The only difference in my experience, and other's. Mine was socially acceptable. Way too much thinking going on.

Stay strong