i really respect you for telling your story with no excuses and for trying to work on the marriage. sounds like an amazing woman you lucked into. you are both survivors. congratulations and all the best wishes for the next however many years you've got left!
How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....