wow what a powerful and honest story about you and your marriage. Thanks for sharing with us. I'm aware how difficult and terrible must be to fight with own demons and to do cause some damage to those who care the most
But man you two deserve some celebrating for your marriage, no matter on huge obstacles, uncertainties, guilt and pain. You two deserve some acknowledgment for trying so hard, you both invested so much in your relationship, I hope and pray for some peaceful and loving days that are approaching.
Your words are very inspiring for me, it brought me thoughts on breaking whit past and turning to present and future, that is healing I'm almost trusty
All I can do is try to do the next right thing every day, and trust God to do the rest.
There is said so much, follow your heart further to that path.
I wish you happy 33rd anniversary