Providence I am in the EXACT same boat as you, with the only difference for me being that I tend to seek out older women. I know the compulsion to do it, how awesome it feels because "Hey this person wants ME!" and then the total guilt afterward about what you've done. This is probably one of the biggest habits I am hoping to break with therapy, because I know it doesn't do me any good and it only screws up the real happiness in my life and I don't need that fleeting moment when something much better is at home. But it's damn hard to deal with it I agree completely