I have definitely felt like this before. Just wanted to never wake up. Sorry you went thru this and hoping you get to feeling better. Best in healing. You are not alone
Ephesians 6:13

Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

Ephesians 5:25

Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her