Welcome--it is so hard but you have taken a courageous step to face the past. It is so difficult--I too wanted to take the secret to my grave but it was not meant to be. I too had it hard at home and it triggered the memories--the pain, hurt, guilt and shame--and set me off into a world unknown to me--lost time. I have made strides and I found my anger and rage have subsided--I just want peace in my life--to love and be loved unconditionally. I do not want the past to control me as it has--each day it gets better and I know you will begin to feel real joy in your life--I can tell you when I started to feel joy and love and loss of anger and rage I said this is how most people must feel. Good luck, welcome and heal well.
Edited by KMCINVA (09/29/12 11:49 AM)